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I officially decided to pull an all-nighter, if only to watch How To Train Your Dragon again. I gotta say, that just might be one of my favorite movies ever. Toothless is so incredibly adorable, and it's nice to see such a good message in a really well-done movie. I've gone on a bit of a merchandise-finding spree; so far I've got a backpack and a blanket that I really want, especially for school this fall. I'm also watching a bunch of Toothless-themed AMVs, because I'm tacky like that.

I tolerated dinner with Granny last night, just to get her to get off my back. I honestly don't see how I was able to ever spend time with her; she's still going on about how she thinks it was a good thing that I wasn't accepted into the National Guard program. And while she does have a right to think whatever she wants about that program, but every time she says that I'm reminded of how much I felt like crap when I first learned I wasn't in; it's like, do you really need to shove in my face that I didn't get into something I really wanted to? It sucked enough to have Deborah tell me that getting a diploma from a place like that wasn't even worth it. Granny keeps saying that she's gonna miss me, and that she doesn't know what she's going to do without me up in Oregon, and it makes me feel like crap because I'm just so damn excited to get away from her, and I would happily go months without any contact with her. I know I should feel differently, but I just don't.

I got a hold of several bunches of church-themed movies, including a documentary on locations in the Book of Mormon. I know I shouldn't need scientific proof to maintain my faith, but it really does help. I definitely feel differently than I did before; I actually have no desire to go to Lexi's b-day this weekend, just because I know there's going to be things there that the Lord wouldn't approve of. I told her I'd go, but I'm debating trying to get out of it. Plus I'm just feeling extra pathetic lately; I think it has to do with the fact that I know I'm gonna be leaving soon, and all I want to do is sit here and be pathetic and alone while I actually have the chance to. I pulled a bunch of clothes out of my closet today, just to get an idea of what I need to get. So far, I need collared shirts, bras, underwear, and socks. Oh joy.

The immigration debate has gotten really intense in these past couple of days, because the feds delayed AZ's new law. It's rather amazing how much my views have changed in the past few years; if you had told me five years ago that I would be whole-heartedly supporting this law, I would've laughed in your face. Between that and abortion, my views are just so incredibly different.

I need to go do wash. At 4:30 in the morning. Also, this guy in the K-Mart Sunday circular from last week is really, really cute. I intend to watch Jerry Springer and sleep today. And I'm quite excited about changing my location on my profile. Blah blah blah, I should stop talking.


"Thank you for nothing, you useless reptile."